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The Renaissance Faire Wench (QLAF)

Quirky Liberal Alpha Female

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Hi,

I want to hold an Open House for my tiny non-profit.

What would make you want to attend an open house type event?  (Keep in mind it's a non-profit which means little money to throw around on this). 

So, I'm finally watching "REPO!  The Genetic Opera".

Fantastic.

GOTH PROM 2009

Sunday, May 24, 2009, 8:00 PM - 1:30 AM @ Town Danceboutique, Washington DC

It's during Memorial Day weekend...

Who's in?  :D

http://www.thescene.com/event?event_id=70996

Rest in peace, Mrs. B.

You don't have to fight or be in pain anymore.

Enjoy your garden in the sky.

You are missed, and always, always, loved.

Tonight went ok.  I felt better hearing how my classmates struggled with our assignment too, and how none of them have started our paper which is due Thursday, either. 

I got observed in session, tongiht, and was keenly aware of my flaws, but my client said she'd missed me last week (we didn't come in on the snow day), so that's something.

..............................

The mother of one of my very best friends is...in hospital, and not doing well.  I'm like an extended part of their family and this troubles me greatly.

She's been fighting cancer for a long time, and this weekend her body seems to have given out on her.

I pray for her to recover, to keep fighting, to get well to enjoy her flowers and gardens again.

My friend, close to me as a brother, called me tonight after returning from the hospital with his father and sister, sobbing and choking. 

Breaking.

I feel so impotent to help.  I was flattered he returned my call in his hour of need.  I offered anything, but...what can I truly give?

Sad, thoughtful, and preparing myself for the best, and the worst...I needed music, tonight, so I'm turning to the angel Gabriel.

Right now, I'm listening to the "Passion" album from "The Passion of the Christ".  

Earlier it was pieces like "Darkness", "The Tower That Ate People", "Don't Leave" and "Here Comes The Flood".

I should try and sleep, but I feel like I'm keeping some sort of vigil...letting the music carry me on a voyage.

.............

Ah well, goodnight.

I love you, M.J.B.

I feel really weird today.

Daylight Savings is poopy, I miss my hour and my body clock is all out of whack.

I feel stressed and behind in my homework.  I was bad on Saturday but good yesterday, and still am not where I want to be with it.  I am looking at it piecemeal to avoid freaking out, you know, the old mind trick of  "ok, what is actually PHYSICALLY due today" and concentrating on that.

I really regret taking three 1-credit classes this semester, in the midst of two other "normal" 3-credit classes.  I kinda wish I had just taken another regular class...but the scheduling was off and I think I remember there not really being anything else this semester I "needed" to take, since I'm getting down to electives at this point, and not many were offered this Spring.  Anyway, I regret them at the moment because they take up two whole intense days and require a lot of front-loaded (or end-loaded reading) in a clump. 

It's hard to explain but people have to take off work to attend them and they are intense and far away.  I have one this Friday and Saturday in Baltimore at the home campus.

Wow, I'm really whiny.  I felt so weak this morning - the incubus was with me this weekend and when he left this morning I cried and kind of begged him to stay.  I didn't want to face the stress of my week alone.  I feel like I am making mistakes but I don't even know what those mistakes are.  I just know that things rarely or never seem to feel right, and I can't pinpoint what it is.  Perhaps it's the patterns I've gotten into, they're not serving me but I'm not enlightened enough to realize it? Or maybe it's that I'm not really the master of my own destiny at the moment and I'm sick of feeling like a child?  I just don't know, but it gives everything else I feel, good or bad, an 'edge' that's annoying as fuck.

Yay - this morning we were discussing The Dark Tower, which I admitted to never reading.  

Today baby was helping me at work by handing out flyers at local businesses for my work's upcoming charity event.  One of the places was a funky used bookstore. 

When he came back, he surprised me with "The Gunslinger"!

Is happiness as an "adult" really so fleeting?

Yesterday morning was a good morning, and the afternoon started ok, but then it got retarded until I was pretty much coasting along at a basic level of disappointment and annoyance, which is all too familiar.

Why do people stab at happiness?  How come people get so wrapped up in themselves and their insecurities that they can't let you be happy?  And if you are happy, you must be picked at until you fall back down to their level and be unhappy like them?

I have a hard enough time being happy on my own - I don't need help bringing myself down. 

Just an FYI.