Welcome to the Liquid Stunning

I feel really weird today.

Daylight Savings is poopy, I miss my hour and my body clock is all out of whack.

I feel stressed and behind in my homework.  I was bad on Saturday but good yesterday, and still am not where I want to be with it.  I am looking at it piecemeal to avoid freaking out, you know, the old mind trick of  "ok, what is actually PHYSICALLY due today" and concentrating on that.

I really regret taking three 1-credit classes this semester, in the midst of two other "normal" 3-credit classes.  I kinda wish I had just taken another regular class...but the scheduling was off and I think I remember there not really being anything else this semester I "needed" to take, since I'm getting down to electives at this point, and not many were offered this Spring.  Anyway, I regret them at the moment because they take up two whole intense days and require a lot of front-loaded (or end-loaded reading) in a clump. 

It's hard to explain but people have to take off work to attend them and they are intense and far away.  I have one this Friday and Saturday in Baltimore at the home campus.

Wow, I'm really whiny.  I felt so weak this morning - the incubus was with me this weekend and when he left this morning I cried and kind of begged him to stay.  I didn't want to face the stress of my week alone.  I feel like I am making mistakes but I don't even know what those mistakes are.  I just know that things rarely or never seem to feel right, and I can't pinpoint what it is.  Perhaps it's the patterns I've gotten into, they're not serving me but I'm not enlightened enough to realize it? Or maybe it's that I'm not really the master of my own destiny at the moment and I'm sick of feeling like a child?  I just don't know, but it gives everything else I feel, good or bad, an 'edge' that's annoying as fuck.