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So, I had another one of my nightmares last night.

I'm kinda pissed, because they had been occurring with less and less frequency.  However, I guess recent events have brought them back to prominence.  (And, no doubt, the emotional blue-balls I have from the party.)

I woke up, drooling on my pillow and crazed with emotions surging through me. 

I know things I'm not supposed to know, which is kinda a given, given my situation and the web we've all woven.

I want to say things, but what would I say?

I want to do things, but what would I do?

People have to realize things in their own time.  Even if I [think] I can see it all like laid out like a distorted road map to hell.

I just want the pain to go away.  Or, at least get used to it.

What you hide inside I see
There's a scar that's always gonna be
There's a past in everyone
You can't undo
You can't outrun...
Believe me when I say
It gets better every day
Once you get used to the pain

"Used to the Pain" -Keith Urban